This is My Story and Yours?

I just hear the song from my old phone, blackberry, "Write my Story." Do you know what is mean? Yup, our story write by God if you believe God, because some of my readers are not into believing God, atheist. Although you don't believe God is not mean I am not believing too. I do believe it and I do feel it. God is so damn amazing, God is wonderful. Even almost a month my faith so weak and I also seldom go to meeting of church members. Although I go there, my mind is not there, I can't concentrate about anything there. Why?

Many problems in a live, it can be from human, economic, work, friendship, it can be anything. But my problem here why make me so weakness and hopeless because someone. I feel something loss in my heart and mine. Making my soul "dark" and my body weak. Many tears come out, although here summer and seldom rain but my tears already flood, because to much and I don't like to shared to my real friends and also in my online journal. I just keep inside here (touch my heart).

But minute by minute, day by day it is more heavy and making me more crazy. Because I can't stand anymore with the feeling like this. As usually I am happy person, I am always smile and I also like to buy something food I don't like because that is old people the seller. I am not feel disgusted when I buy their food. I just love to see the old people still fighting to keep life without become beggar. I love what they are doing and it also make me spirit to rise my dream when I feel my dream so far to get rise.

I am learning my life like research or observation. I know I am still lucky person in the world. I have little money to survive, to buy food and to pay rent without become beggar. As long as I am in Jakarta already around 3-4 jobs I got and it is not long time, because to far direction and also just temporary position I took. Whatever it is that making me feel I can survive.

I do anything as long as it right way :) I am not shy to say that. My life is like empty book and I still keep to content it every time to make my life precious. I am still imagine if one day I can be speaker like Joyce Mayer, where in every sermon she talk about her experience in her life, How God help her out from the darkness life. How she can see the amazing grace God help her in the deep shadow life. I can be like her, become good writer and also good speaker, to tell them, whatever you had in your life, don't give up! Remember every rain always has rainbow, although every rain never show the rainbow but in the right time it will be. You can see the many color adore in the sky. Wonderful and amazing when you see it, sound like so close and you can touch every color it, red, blue, yellow, purple, blue become line by line. That is your life too, will be like that one day.

But to get rainbow, you should fighting, never give up. When you feel down, take your spirit. My secret to be happy person is Don't look in your high level but look in your down level to make you feel so blessing in every problems you got, you still say Thank You Lord, You still with me and You never make me down and be lost (be drowned) in my all problems in alive. You will help me with Your precious way and I never realize.

Life is amazing, like my favorite song, Life is beautiful. Yes, that is life whatever angle you got, just think life is beautiful. This is my life up and down. Whatever down level now in my life, whatever tears come out, I am still smiling and said everything is OK. I am strong woman and I am happy person. Whatever the problems hit me, making me down, I can survive and I can say Thank You Lord, You still remember me. In every problems in aspect life, I always know that is the way I am learning and find solution. Although no other way in many ways still have one hope. Keep strong and you will stronger. Keep positive that is making your spirit back. I am not the famous motivation speaker, but I always said, Whatever life come to you, whatever tears come out in your life, whatever problems come one by one in every your breath. You have solution, You have wonderful life, You are good student to keep good in line. This is half story I can tell you my nice readers.

Just remember, You born in this earth, You have mission and You are precious because to present in life you are fighting with all sperm inside the belly and you are good swimmer so you are born. See, You wanna born you need fight first to get one place to make you become a cute baby :) So Smiling and the world will smile to you :)

Happy day always yea.... Wish me will update with good story and good experience to shared to you all. Kiss to you.... :)