Writing and Keep Writing

 Dear diary, a few days I do writing about backpacker book and now for one part of city already finish. Will keep continue to other part. I am so happy but also so sad, because I should make map hahahaha, I think map I can used google map. But that is not good idea right. so naive me. But writing in english is so different then writing in Indonesian language, Why? In Indonesia one sentence can be long sentence but in english all become short. gGrrrrgrrr, do I give up? Of course not. I am Citra Pandiangan, mmmm I won't give up. I will do best as I can do. This is my dream.

Dear diary, after this book finish writing with the deadline end this month. Then I will continue writing to my kids story book. I do have concept but still not writing it, plus a novel again :) ah also about my journey adventure as I am collecting the way to go there.

Life is not easy diary, but I am strong and I know everything is not easy but I can survive and I am trying to think just positive thinking. After this book finish, I will try to find job again. I dont want feel guilty after rejecting the job which offer to me in this month. I believe something will be nice one day, although this time is worse to me. But I do survive and will survive, like Norman Vincent said in his book "YOU CAN IF YOU THINK YOU CAN" I believe it and I do believe everything is not easy but it worth it to be waiting and get something wonderful is not easy but the ending will so wonderful.


Actually, I also want to go to consulate asap to find information about how to make visa to Dublin. This consulate office in South Jakarta. So I will do that and try to find to get there. Plus, I will never give up to keep collected data about the way to go there in internet. Dear diary, some people who already go there said to get visa in Dublin is not so easy like other Europe parts. But I should try to ask with my own words face to face right.

Dear diary, Jakarta is raining already two days the rain is never stop all day. But I am still keep spirit to writing and i am still not apply job, because I am still having hope this month or february I can go to somewhere and get my first stamp again in my new passport. Wish me luck ok.

Dear diary, I do feel I am so far with God, I wish God will not upset with me. Today I want to close with Him again. I want He will forgive me and His hand still open and His ears still want to hear my problems and my dreams. I know God never leave me alone and I do believe it in my 31 days + 5 days last year. I do believe it, His hands still open and still waiting me back. I know I always pray but it just regularly without from my heart.

Dear diary, my money is getting less and less and this month I dont get order so I don't know can I get survive till next month and the price boarding house getting up. Crazy Jakarta or Crazy the owner boarding house. I dont know and I do search new boarding house ( my sister was not allow me used this word, she asked me to used Rent Room because the word boarding house has bad meaning but normally it is KOST (rent room)  but all full and no vacancy, I wish one day I will find the nice and clean one. Talking about clean. My room so disaster. all messy and today I want to clean all it so I can writing the backpacker book with full spirit again. Today I also buy something in market after a few days just buy food in vendor. I wish that food will enough till the end this week hahahahaha. Yea, should economic because I am still not work so no income. Income just when people ask to buy my stuff. Ah I wish this weekend I can sell my production hair made in Monas when I am doing exercises. Making my feel low level but that is ok. That is the challenge to promotion my website hahahaha.